Can anyone help me with this ( big question )?

Walk a mile in someone else's shoes. Unless you have been around the world and see what others have to deal with on a daily basis; wars, famine, starvation, violence, etc., then it is difficult to say your life is worse than most. Yes, you likely have it worse than some, and to some others, you are like a king. I grew up with violence and abuse and I don't sweat it now, nor did I allow it to control my life and take over my actions. Cowboy up, take a stand, and do the right thing.